journeyofmyheart

Why do I start things and never finish

Like starting a diet and quitting.  I really hates diets actually.  I wish I could eat what I wanted and when I wanted and not gain weight.  That is just not so in my life.  I know there has to be a lesson somewhere in this whole thing of overeating but I just haven't gotten it yet.  I like to blame it on that I love food but really I found myself not even enjoying the food and just keep on eating. 

Another thing is starting this blog and the 366 day challenge.  Oh well, I just need to learn not to start certain things because I will end up feeling like a failure.

On a positive note-

Here are few things that I keep on doing and haven't quit. 

1. Been married for 23 years.

2. Have homeschooled for 17 years

3. Haven't given up on myself and I keep striving daily to become the person God intended me to become.

4.  Being the best friend possible.

I guess there are some things that are just more important and I need to realize that some things I never quit.  Maybe I will die overweight but I hope that I have impacted my little part of the world some how.

 

366 Day Challenge

I have started a 366 Day Challenge. I will take a photo a day.  My challenge is to take a closer look at the things around me more. 

Here are the first three I have taken so far. 

Living your dreams

"We must nurture our dreams like we would a child. They are God-given and just as precious. Without ambition how would a child learn to ride a bicycle, play an instrument or whistle? We deny the spirit of God when we as adults settle for less than our dreams!"
- Conway Stone

I received this quote today and I love it!  How many times have we as adult just stop living but just exist throughout our life.  We somehow lose the ability to live our life to the fullest.  When I read this I it got me to thinking about what really holds me back in realizing my dreams.  I know one of mine is the fear that I will not be able to handle it.  Not quite sure what "it' is though.  Plus, I get side-tracked by some many little things in life.  So my goal is to figure what is really important and set a schedule (again) and go for it!  I encourage today to take a deep look at your life and dig deep inside to find out what dreams you have given up on.

Blessings!

Steph

 

Fear

"If you let fear of consequence prevent you from following your deepest instinct, then your life will be safe, expedient and thin."  Katharine Butler Hathaway.

Have you ever gotten tired of being afraid in your life?  Have you been in a place in your life that fear has kept you from really being yourself? Or maybe from living out a dream?

As I write this, I find myself reliving the many times that fear has controlled my life.  I have always been afraid of what others thought of me and that people will see the real me and not like me.  I know it may sound silly and it seems silly when I write this however I have found that most of my life has been stopped because of fear. 

So do we continue the rest of our lives living in this fear or do we step out and do the things that we have always dreamed?  How do we begin this journey out of our fear?  I believe the first thing is just to take the first step and know that ever person that has lived their dreams have been afraid at some time in their life. 

So for today lets take the first step and lets take this journey together because that is what friends are for.  I know I am blessed with many special people that have believed in me even when I haven't believed in myself.

Thanks!

   A couple of my precious boy!

God's Faithfulness

"For Great is Your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies." Psalm 57:10

"He will cover you with his feathers, ad under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."  Psalm 91:4

I was reminded of God's faithfulness again this week.  It brings tears to my eyes and I so thankful I can see how God is so faithful in the midst sadness, and tragedy. 

My brother and sister-in-law lost their baby, Skylar Shae, on May 17, 2006.  She was due today, September 17th.  It has been a hard month for them.  I just found out that my sister-in-law is pregnant again and the most amazing news is that she is due on May 17th.  God is so good.  I know that it will always be sad and they will always miss not having Skylar in their arms however I pray that this baby will help with the sadness and bring them joy. 

Live everyday to the fullest

"Dance as if no one's watching, sing as if no one's listening, and live everyday as if it were your last."  Irish Proverb

I really love this quote.  It really makes me stop to think about how many times I have stopped myself for truly living because of what others thought.  I am even finding myself now with my children being in their teenage years stopping myself for singing, and dancing in front of them because it is embarrassing to them or they tell me that I look silly. (I don't usually dance or sing in public).  I have to ask myself why do I allow so many things and people stop my joy of living?  I am such a better person to be around when I am singing and dancing and laughing. 

So I vow for this moment forward to put on blinders to others and learn to laugh, sing, and dance my way through this life. 

My personal journey

I have decided to start a blog sharing my personal journey.  I used write a Monday Morning Motivation for my friends and family and I have really missed writing that so I have decided to share my journey and thoughts through this blog.   My biggest prayer is that the words I write may help you in your journey.  My prayer is that you find peace and love throughout your life and that you come to know God more intimately.

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"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  Psalms 139:14

As I look at this picture of my daughter I can see God's beautiful work.  It saddens me when she thinks she isn't beautiful or that she is too fat because I can see the beauty in her - Not just the outer beauty but the beauty of her heart.  When she tells me these negative things about herself I have to ask myself how many times have I put down myself - criticizing God's creation (me).  It must really sadden God when we say mean things about ourself.  My prayer is that Miranda learn to see herself as God sees her and I pray that I will also remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

So I ask that you take a moment today to thank God for creating you just the way you are-each of you are very special and beautiful. 

I am so thankful that God created each of you.  My life has been truly blessed!!